Make up my mind about what?
She hasn’t felt like my best friend for a long time.
But I’m NOT going to break her heart when she really needs me right now
And I spend time with her whenever I can, I’m busy with work and school too, you know
It certainly doesn’t feel that way anymore
That’s what I’m trying to do. If she’s changed permanently, then that’s that. And I still love her.
But I KNOW that she isnt a clingy, scared little kid, she’s a Sassy Mama bear.
I just hope she finds that within herself again
I’m not saying she was more responsible!
I’m saying she was HAPPIER, she wasn’t having nightmares all the time, she wasn’t always scared of being alone
She was the only person I could turn to, and now… now…
…I just miss my best friend
I’m not gonna be the one to make her feel like she’s always being abandoned
Like… End of the year last year?
It was around the time Mitch abandoned her, but…
I don’t know… Its like she lost herself cuz of that stupid kid.
Her confidence, her strength, her attitude. Everything changed.
And I guess it wasnt just Mitch, she lost a lot of friends she was close to, or she just drifted away fron them.
But… I feel like she was more mature and easier to talk to before than she is now
There’s nothing wrong with getting married. I just don’t think I’m emotionally ready to make that commitment with anyone right now, I’m still living with my dad and going to school. I want to be a little more mature before I settle down.
I know what Sass is like… But… She’s changed ALOT from when I first met her.
… Honestly I…